Today, the last few weeks washed over me as I sat with my feet in the sand. There's so much to process. Not only am I facing two hip surgeries, but I have a 6 month old and a two and half year old. I never stop picking them up, or carrying them up and down the stairs. Often I pay for it after the fact, but it is my joy to hold them and carry them while they are little.
I feel that I have grieved what this hip problem has stolen from me already. It has been such a rollercoaster and I realize the ride has just taken off, but I am ready now to face it head-on.
Swimming laps has never been my favorite activity, but it's all I've got for a while anyway. I've started interval training and each lap down I race my hip impingement. I know it sounds crazy, but it helps. I pull harder, each time, attacking what this is taking from me. I have decided not to make recovering from hip surgery my goal, instead...
In two years, I hope to participate in my first triathalon. Recovering from hip surgery is not enough...God willing. I am counting on healing, support and strength larger than anything I have ever known and bigger than myself.
So, while I'm here at the beach with my girlies...I am starting the process of focusing on my health and nutrition. I am in attack mode and am preparing for these surgeries spiritually and physically. I want to be strong and positive. I am looking forward to answers and solutions and feel the surgeries are an opportunity for that. I am also counting on those of you offering your friendship and support, but most of all prayer to keep our family in yours. I believe in the power of prayer and I am praying that the damage will not be as severe as projected, that I will not have cartlidge damage and labral tearing.
Thanks for listening, and as always...I'll keep you posted:).
Vanessa
I feel that I have grieved what this hip problem has stolen from me already. It has been such a rollercoaster and I realize the ride has just taken off, but I am ready now to face it head-on.
Swimming laps has never been my favorite activity, but it's all I've got for a while anyway. I've started interval training and each lap down I race my hip impingement. I know it sounds crazy, but it helps. I pull harder, each time, attacking what this is taking from me. I have decided not to make recovering from hip surgery my goal, instead...
In two years, I hope to participate in my first triathalon. Recovering from hip surgery is not enough...God willing. I am counting on healing, support and strength larger than anything I have ever known and bigger than myself.
So, while I'm here at the beach with my girlies...I am starting the process of focusing on my health and nutrition. I am in attack mode and am preparing for these surgeries spiritually and physically. I want to be strong and positive. I am looking forward to answers and solutions and feel the surgeries are an opportunity for that. I am also counting on those of you offering your friendship and support, but most of all prayer to keep our family in yours. I believe in the power of prayer and I am praying that the damage will not be as severe as projected, that I will not have cartlidge damage and labral tearing.
Thanks for listening, and as always...I'll keep you posted:).
Vanessa
