Not Business as Usual...

So, I'm 7 weeks post-op now for FAI on my right hip.  The miserable crutches & walker days are behind me (hooray).  According to my PT I am doing great, range of motion ahead of what is expected.  According to records, I'm improving, on schedule, all is well.  And don't get me wrong I am very thankful of that...very thankful.  But here's the rub.

Life has moved on, help has moved out, and to the casual onlookers there's nothing wrong with me, no special need, etc.  But there is still pain, a lot of weakness and stiffness in the hip.  Simple tasks like getting my three year old to school in the morning leave me wiped out.  I'm gonna be honest here, dishes piled up, laundry undone, chaos in the kids room and everywhere else for that matter.  I went on a cleaning & organizing spree the week before my surgery and there's nothing to show for it now.  And the part that really stinks is, there is no way I am physically capable of catching up...no way.  I write it down on my planner everyday, but where I used to push through I am simply not physically able.  And I think the restrictions on activity that have been in place for so long have left me weak in general.

So, I think this might be as tough of a time as those first post-op weeks in many ways.  At least during that time there was help & support and others cheering you on.  These days are very much like the pre-op days.  My PT says that there will come a time, maybe around 9 weeks where we will start "pushing through", but right now the site is still healing, still fragile.  There's no reason to compromise it...so I sit here typing blog posts to keep from losing my mind. 

As soon as I do get caught up on my 600 item to do list, I am going to start a fight with Aetna to appeal covering my left hip.  Now that I see and feel how much better it can be post-op I am going to fight them to the bitter end.

WIll let you know how that goes.